One of those days
Sometimes it’s hard to get out of bed. Sometimes it’s hard to pick up the phone and reach out. Sometimes it’s hard to motivate yourself to switch the computer on and do the work you know you have to do to pay the bills and keep the wolf from the door. Sometimes it’s hard to let go of the past and step into the now. Sometimes you can’t believe that good things will happen to you and that the future is bright, that all that longing for a career that fulfills you and means something will come to fruition. Sometimes you wonder why everyone else has it so easy and for you it’s so very very hard. Sometimes you want to let go of that pity party and slap yourself across the face. Sometimes, just sometimes, you wish he would come back from the dead and take you in his arms and tell you that he is sorry he had to go, that he is sorry he never answered your question, that he wishes things had been different. Sometimes you let yourself think about that too much.
apyes… sometimes I do… I know how this feels…. well said.
apyes… sometimes I do… I know how this feels…. well said.
Lovely girl, I read your blog differently now because I can relate to your loss so well. Oh my, grief is a wall that I keep running up against. I say that often, but that’s exactly how I feel. Do you find that in dealing with his death that it’s a series of abrupt, very painful realizations? One day I’m moving along in this life swimmingly, the very next I struggle to find one reason to get my ass out of bed. I seem to walk around this beautiful world in complete disbelief. Yeah, I’m having one of those days, too.
-love-
Lovely girl, I read your blog differently now because I can relate to your loss so well. Oh my, grief is a wall that I keep running up against. I say that often, but that’s exactly how I feel. Do you find that in dealing with his death that it’s a series of abrupt, very painful realizations? One day I’m moving along in this life swimmingly, the very next I struggle to find one reason to get my ass out of bed. I seem to walk around this beautiful world in complete disbelief. Yeah, I’m having one of those days, too.
-love-
sometimes you have to be extra gentle with yourself as your healing and evolving takes you on this unexpected journey…
x’s and o’s
sometimes you have to be extra gentle with yourself as your healing and evolving takes you on this unexpected journey…
x’s and o’s
And sometimes you need to just GO to the pity party…
just make sure you WEAR the most outrageous dress ever!!;-)
and then drink some wine while your dancing with all the boys;-0
loving you
holding you
trying to give you
the answers…
xxx d
And sometimes you need to just GO to the pity party…
just make sure you WEAR the most outrageous dress ever!!;-)
and then drink some wine while your dancing with all the boys;-0
loving you
holding you
trying to give you
the answers…
xxx d
but just like you said Sus…
only SOMETIMES…
i’m leaving a kiss in your forehead
sweet dreams tonight :)
but just like you said Sus…
only SOMETIMES…
i’m leaving a kiss in your forehead
sweet dreams tonight :)
But also sometimes it’s ok to think about that, for a while.
But also sometimes it’s ok to think about that, for a while.
Funny, I think when we have little to live for we age faster, which (according to my theroy) is why when people retire after long careers or when a loved one passes they find it so hard. They seem to fade away . . . which is a shame.
I feel your ya sister, but a slap is what you need. No one as talented, attractive and together as you should be sad for long. What will the rest of us mortals have to look up to?
Have courage and dream a new dream. . I’m not one to talk as it happens to me . . but its still good advice no matter how hypocritical I am.
Funny, I think when we have little to live for we age faster, which (according to my theroy) is why when people retire after long careers or when a loved one passes they find it so hard. They seem to fade away . . . which is a shame.
I feel your ya sister, but a slap is what you need. No one as talented, attractive and together as you should be sad for long. What will the rest of us mortals have to look up to?
Have courage and dream a new dream. . I’m not one to talk as it happens to me . . but its still good advice no matter how hypocritical I am.
Susannah,
Sometimes………………
No answers, just a shoulder.
deep breath
one baby step at a time.
rel
Susannah,
Sometimes………………
No answers, just a shoulder.
deep breath
one baby step at a time.
rel
I have these days a lot, and reading this makes me realize how inconsequential my reasons are compared to yours. There is so much still to do in this life and I thank you for reminding me of that.
I have these days a lot, and reading this makes me realize how inconsequential my reasons are compared to yours. There is so much still to do in this life and I thank you for reminding me of that.
I’m sending a hug to you. I know those days and the hunger for just one more conversation.
I’m sending a hug to you. I know those days and the hunger for just one more conversation.
It’s strange that we can all relate in some form or fashion. Days like this. It does make you grateful for the days when it seems like nothing could go wrong and you feel full of joy and exhileration.
Do you really put lipstick on on days like that? that’s impressive.
It’s strange that we can all relate in some form or fashion. Days like this. It does make you grateful for the days when it seems like nothing could go wrong and you feel full of joy and exhileration.
Do you really put lipstick on on days like that? that’s impressive.
Sending a hug across the miles to you.
I can hear the sadness in your words today, but I’ve seen the progress you’ve made and know that tomorrow will be a brighter day. Sometimes we just have to keep going through the motions.
Sending a hug across the miles to you.
I can hear the sadness in your words today, but I’ve seen the progress you’ve made and know that tomorrow will be a brighter day. Sometimes we just have to keep going through the motions.
i am here love.
i am with you…just be in it and i will listen and snuggle.
loving you tender,
denise
i am here love.
i am with you…just be in it and i will listen and snuggle.
loving you tender,
denise
I am crying.
You are so special.
Sometimes we think about what could have been.. what “should” have been way too much.
humfffffff.
I hope it passes soon sweets.
Bx
I am crying.
You are so special.
Sometimes we think about what could have been.. what “should” have been way too much.
humfffffff.
I hope it passes soon sweets.
Bx
Oh… and a big, big cuddle for you too.
Bx
Oh… and a big, big cuddle for you too.
Bx
Sending you big hugs gorgeous girl. We’re allowed to have the bad days too – makes recognizing the good ones that much more fun!!
I love your 100 things, what a great idea!!!
xoxoxo
Sending you big hugs gorgeous girl. We’re allowed to have the bad days too – makes recognizing the good ones that much more fun!!
I love your 100 things, what a great idea!!!
xoxoxo
Dear beautiful Susannah! Be where you need to be right now. That is all. Sometimes we just need to be where we are, and cuddle up to the feelings that need to be felt. It’s okay to do that!
I sure wish i had more healing words for you, my friend. So instead I just send you love across the pond. ;) oxoxoxoxoxoxox See? Lots and lots of love!
:)
Dear beautiful Susannah! Be where you need to be right now. That is all. Sometimes we just need to be where we are, and cuddle up to the feelings that need to be felt. It’s okay to do that!
I sure wish i had more healing words for you, my friend. So instead I just send you love across the pond. ;) oxoxoxoxoxoxox See? Lots and lots of love!
:)
sometimes it feels we’ve made such progress only to have days that take us back a couple of steps. hang on. thinking of you.
sometimes it feels we’ve made such progress only to have days that take us back a couple of steps. hang on. thinking of you.
sending you love sweetness, hope you are having a better day today, be gentle with yourself.
you are loved x x x x x
sending you love sweetness, hope you are having a better day today, be gentle with yourself.
you are loved x x x x x
Angel – I’ve been like that for a few weeks, and then over the last few days got back in the game. I know how you are feeling about thinking that everyone has it better or easier, it is so hard not to compare our lives to those of others, and to mark our achievement by theirs. Your photo is stunning Suze, your talent is without doubt and your life is just beginning again………a new chapter full of good and bad days, more good than bad ones though! Catch up sounds great, with wine and cigarettes of course. Love ya
Angel – I’ve been like that for a few weeks, and then over the last few days got back in the game. I know how you are feeling about thinking that everyone has it better or easier, it is so hard not to compare our lives to those of others, and to mark our achievement by theirs. Your photo is stunning Suze, your talent is without doubt and your life is just beginning again………a new chapter full of good and bad days, more good than bad ones though! Catch up sounds great, with wine and cigarettes of course. Love ya
Yes. I know.
Yes. I know.
Hoping you’re feeling better soon – about everything. I think I understand how you feel – one step forward; two steps back. Sadly, some questions will never be answered. It’s frustrating – but your sad mood is temporary. As Scarlett O’Hara was fond of saying, “Tomorrow is another day. Fiddle-dee-dee.” Sending you a big hug and lots of love, mon ami. xo
Hoping you’re feeling better soon – about everything. I think I understand how you feel – one step forward; two steps back. Sadly, some questions will never be answered. It’s frustrating – but your sad mood is temporary. As Scarlett O’Hara was fond of saying, “Tomorrow is another day. Fiddle-dee-dee.” Sending you a big hug and lots of love, mon ami. xo
happens to all of us..sometimes i just want to get lost and not be around anyone..
happens to all of us..sometimes i just want to get lost and not be around anyone..
I understand and know.
I understand and know.
I’ve been catching up on all your posts I have missed from the wedding chaos. I love your writing because it flows from your heart :)
Loved your 100 things :)
Congrats on going from 20 to 10…Woohoo! Please take care of that beautiful body too.
Wedding pictures are up!
There are those days I wish I were whole too. HUGS
I’ve been catching up on all your posts I have missed from the wedding chaos. I love your writing because it flows from your heart :)
Loved your 100 things :)
Congrats on going from 20 to 10…Woohoo! Please take care of that beautiful body too.
Wedding pictures are up!
There are those days I wish I were whole too. HUGS
…i know…
…i know…
So raw…so present, Susannah. Your process is true and beautiful, as you are to me.
So raw…so present, Susannah. Your process is true and beautiful, as you are to me.
Somethings in our past… you think that one day we won’t think about them anymore… but they surface and that is the way…maybe because those past events are our teacher trying to guide us on our true path.
Somethings in our past… you think that one day we won’t think about them anymore… but they surface and that is the way…maybe because those past events are our teacher trying to guide us on our true path.