Today is a sad day

sweet, sweet girl….

susannah, i am sending you so much love, darling, to get through today. i wish your love a happy birthday, and for you…i wish peace.

you will have all the support you need from my corner when the anger comes out. take care of you…and email me if you would like to. booyaka_bee@hotmail.com

You will be on my mind today…and tonight, I’ll drink a glass of chardonnay to you and your ongoing journey!

Anger is a part of grief I’m coming to as well. And it’s so strange and uncomfortable. I don’t do anger well. It’s funny, we expect the sadness, but this other is a surprise. I’ll be thinking about you today.

Susannah,
Anger is a destructive emotion. Moreso if kept inside,surpressed.
Like a hungry disease
Gnawing away at your heart.
Frightning when out,
But up… and away
Freedom, surcease.

Slip into the warm fold of
Friendship
Tonight.
Sip wine,massage your soul
Search, find release
Be kind to yourself.
rel

i think a lot of people have trouble with anger. anger has kind of gotten a bad rap and been labled negatively. and like you i was taught that it had to be justified (or in my childhood home it had to be “holy/righteous” anger–which is similiar to needing to be justified). that begin to shift for me while working through the artist way. cameron said something about anger that clicked and gave me permission to not only feel it but to express it. it was something about it being a tool/marker that showed us when something wasn’t right with us–like a boundary being crossed. for me that was so helpful.

i’ll be holding you in my heart today dear friend…dear, strong, amazing, open, beautiful friend…

i’ll raise a beer to you tonight Susannah, to your past, to your present, to your future, and all the parts that overlap, too.

thinking of you sweetness x x x

(i’m not being metaphorical, i’ll be toasting you for real :-))

Thoughts and prayers for this melancholy day for you.

Anger…..a frequent visitor in many of my days…for varied and unrelated reasons…..but all kindred spirits in their impact on me.

I suggest a simple exercise, not insane – albeit some may look at you that way. Find a place, a quiet, secluded place, a safe place.

Then, scream your lungs out….long, primal, gut wrenching, soul cleansing screams. Then, cry if you must and use every colorful curse word you know and raise your fists and rant at the heavens. Throw rocks, hit a pillow…..Then heave a deep cleansing sigh and see if there is any release, any calm. Repeat as needed to vent the emotions.
Sounds all hippie and new age and psycho mumbo-jumbo rolled into one but it WORKS for me. Sometimes, I just repair to a full force shower in the bath and do it there…..
Whatever heals the pain.

Sending you big hugs sweetie. I too have issues with anger and finding ways to express it and stop it from suffocating me. I love getting it out through colours – painting or crayons or whatever, just scribbling the words and feelings and things I have a hard time saying out loud. Feels good to purge it.
Have a great dinner!!

i too shall raise a glass…to you, to your love and to your journey.

love you monkey.

love,
monkey butt

Oh beautiful one….beat the pillow…I know it sounds silly….my mother always told me to beat the pillow…get the anger out it is so toxic….yet she never fell on the bed and banged her fists. Instead she moaned deep mournful sobs, holding her anger so close to her heart.

I can remember all the times I sat on the edge of the bed, wanting to beat the pillow but feeling silly-even when alone-and then the near slow motion as I raised my fists and then the battery of hammering them in sync on the bed and pillows.

Taking a stick to a tree or screaming at the top of your lungs in the car are also good.

Smooches for those hopefully tender fists

Hmmmmm time to wrap you up in a warm blankie and have some tea…of course, this takes place after we have opened all the windows and screamed at the top of our lungs ;-) !!!

MANY k’s & H’s

love U
XxxD

Dear Susannah… I am so sorry. I wish I could give you some of my own anger– I seem to have tons more than is useful. And it would seem a fair trade, because I am feeling some of your saddness…

Prayers and love.

:)

Sometimes it is OK to let yourself be angry.

Anger is a most valuable emotion, and tool at certain times in our lives.
Feel it.
Use it.
I am thinking of you Susannah… with much compassion, especially today sweets. Trully hard.
I would be FUCKING pissed off forever in the same sitch sista.
You are doing so amazingly well… even on the worst of days.

And I wish your guy a happy birthday too… I am sure his soul is riding the stars in our skies.
Love to you….
Bx

Oh sweetie – I have tried three times to write a decent comment here that might help or hold you a little and I can’t find the right words. Just please know that I am here if you need me and that you are strong and that it’s perfectly okay to be angry – in fact, I think it’s a pretty healthy thing to express – Grroooowwwllllll, rage and scream and stomp if you need to, but know that you are okay!! Love to you – xoxox

Kisses and angels flying your way girl, passionate girl, you make me laugh as much as you make me cry, i love you with all my heart. Now close your eyes… i’m hugging you :)

Darling, those special days are always the hardest, Im sorry for your pain. I hope you are having a better day today, I wish you peace.

When it was ma’s birthday, our first birthday without her, fairy and I did somthing that ma always enjoyed to do on her birthday. It helped us a little and we knew she’d be happy, looking down on us :-)

Happy birhtday to your love from fairy and I, I’ve asked ma to give him a kiss from you :-)
Lost of hugs darling XxXxXxXxXxXxX

I’m glad you are in Mads hands :) Tell her I miss her!

Have you ever thought of finding someone with a punching bag allowing you to beat the crap out of it? You need it out before it becomes toxic and hurts your heart :)

HUGS

Much peace and love to you, dear S. Hope you and the amazing Ms. M. had a lovely dinner. Hugs. x

oh my sweet friend, i hug you. right now. i am hugging you and holding your heart, holding you up, whatever you need.

love you,
liz

Rage and shout and cry and shake the rafters if you need to do it.

We’ll ALL be here for you, whatever happens.

Strength and courage, sweets.

xoxo,
mon

sometimes the anger is corked up inside of us until we are capable of bearing the brunt of it. you’re right, it is a very powerful emotion. and you are building strength each day to weild this emotion. then, this shall pass too, and then you will be on to the next horizon.

This post touched a nerve with
me as i am rarely truly angry-
and it might really help speed
my healing:(

Love the picture. You are so
very photogenic.

I was gone this weekend so am reading this late, but just want to say that I think the birthday of someone we’ve loved and lost is one of the hardest days. It seems to me that it’s really natural to feel angry, but it is often hard to own that and to express it because we’re so often taught that anger isn’t “nice.” Sigh.

I hope you had a lovely evening with Madeleine.

Just want you to know that I’m thinking of you.

miss you :)

XxxDarlene

Hope you are doing okay…((hugs))

:)