The weekly post
I was away last week, staying with my sister. We cleaned and wrote and designed an advert for the paper. We laughed and ate a lot of chocolate; we shared some sister time, which was much needed. And now I’m back home and I’ve realized that this really is my home. This flat I’ve filled with sofas and lamps and antique furniture and swirls of incense. This is my home, and I don’t want to leave it. I’ve always rented and have had many addresses in my thirty-four years, but this little flat by the sea is the only place I have ever truly felt at home. I arrived here in broken pieces and stitched myself back together. I found myself here.
This is becoming a problem and I’m not sure how I can remedy it. I’ve been talking and thinking about moving back to the city so much that I haven’t questioned it – it was simply the most logical next step to take. But now that I really am arriving at D-Day I realise that I have been living in the past and the future, and overlooking what i have in the present. And my present needs me to remain here, i feel, to nurture my fledgling business so that one day i can return to London (or wherever my path takes me) with a solid foundation beneath my feet.
I need to think about this some more…
Whatever you feel you need to do, I think you should do it. I am behind you all the way. Would your landlord be willing to let you remain? It sounds like the ideal place to live to me. I envy you in a way. Best of luck whatever you decide to do.
~Becky~
Sometimes, your heart knows what’s best. I am so glad for you that you feel at home where you – and I can just imagine how cozy that place is. Thank God for sister time – it is so good for the soul. Be well.
its such a huge thing to realize that where we are is right where we want and need to be … listen to your heart my dear and it will guide you true … xox
Sending lots and lots of good thoughts your way that you’ll make the decision that will make you happiest and will find the way to make that decision a reality~~~~~~~~
This makes me really happy for you honey. Isn’t it cathartic when you realize that your dreams have changed and more importantly, that it feels good when acknowledged? What I imagine of your seaside town is magical – I long to visit your town someday, to see the cottages on the shore, to walk on those beaches. I’m happy for you.
And you and I are in novel reading synchronicity. Just this morning I finished The History of Love. I’d love to hear your thoughts when you finish. xoxo
hmmmm I can’t tell you how much I am beaming over here-with a grin on my face and love and adoration in my heart. You are so wonderful angel-I am so thrilled that you are feeling these things. Your solid footing is so inspirational.
Love you
XOXOXO
Yes, sometimes, when the fog clears and we open our eyes and hearts wide, we see that all we really need is right in front of us. And, my,that sea must be filled with liquid healing for body and soul. Bathe a while longer…you are becoming your best self.
Namaste, Sweet Priestess.
There’s a lot to be said for feeling firmly planted. You’ll know when it’s really time to move, until then I hope you’ll be able to luxuriate in feeling at home.
Dear Sus,
Listen to your inner voice … your itinerary is not cut in stone … be flexible with your journey ~ you will travel the right path.
xx,
JP
“I realise that I have been living in the past and the future, and overlooking what i have in the present. “—
Yes! I do this, too. I plan for tomorrow, and think about the past, and then Ilook up and see how Georgia has grown…Right under my nose! We all need to stop and breath in the space we are in.
If this place feels like home to you, that is huge. I think that is huge. I would pay attention to that. Who says you *have* to go now?
I am thinking of you, and wishing for you find your answers… ;)
OX :)
Lucky you to have found a place to call home. Isn’t it strange how our heart always speaks up at last notice? I hope you’ll find out more about what to do soon. Thinking of you.. xx
beautiful, beautiful photos dearheart…
and may you trust your belly in knowing where your spirit calls ~
many blessings on your journey,
leonie
Ah, your weekly round-up is a sweet thing! I hope you keep trusting that gut instinct. It will never steer you wrong…
Love,
D.
ah dear one i think you’ll figure it out…i trust you’ll figure out…just like you trust that i’ll figure my stuff out too…
love you!
Oh, sweetheart! I felt that from you when I was there. I don’t know that I felt it from you forever, but for now. I am glad that you are allowing the pondering. XO
As I read this I can’t help but giggle….
giggle at myself because here I am surrounded by humongous boxes and books and clothes and geez..aaarg…My family and I are moving tomorrow..chaos..chaos!.
If I had a place by the beach I’d stay forever!…
Oh’..and..um’..pretty lady…your London will always be there..while you settle your heart on where home will truly be…
( I say on with living by the beach..hee! hee!..)
Follow you heart hunny … it will lead you where you’r meant to be :-)
Love and kisses xXxXxXxXxXx
I would not leave a cottage by the beach either sweets.
Whatever is right for you… you will know and do.
with love
Bx
I find it hard sometimes to swallow my “pride” and revisit my choices. I love and admire you for this wisdom and courage.
You are a very wise woman.
So glad you had some good sister time.
x
it’s always best to follow your heart and it’s lovely guiding voices and you have identified where your heart currently is. In any case, the fact that you are truly seeing where you are in this present moment is beautiful and healthy to ponder. Sending you love… xoxo
You know the greatest thing about realising that YOU are in charge of your life? Its the fact that you CAN change your mind and reinvent who you are as often as you like:-)
As long as you are following YOUR heart and not worrying about anyone elses opinion or expectations, you can’t go wrong.
Do whatever makes you feel most at peace with yourself and who you want to be.
Much love
Jodes
As always, a blast of truth. It’s amazing to know in your bones that home is home and NOW is NOW. Sometime I am working on as well.
xoxo, M
I am late in reading this…but goodness me, this is a huge realization and it is so important in so many ways. You are doing the right thing by waiting and thinking on this. You will make the right decision. And perhaps, when you originally decided to move back to the city, that was the correct decision at that time. Much has changed for you between now and then. Maybe it was the idea that you needed to start propelling yourself forward because you were going to move that was really important thing here, and not the move itself. It was the catalyst…but now, it is not needed.
I wish happiness for you always.
xoxoxo
Listen to your gut, Susannah. Whether you stay or whether you move to London, it is great that you like where and who you are now in the Present.