October, 2007
I heart California
{Four girlfriends in the studio, taken by Christine’s fabulous other half}
There’s so much I could share I honestly don’t know where to start, so I’ll ease myself in gently with a few photographs first. My body clock is upside down, I’m on a post-holiday come-down, and missing my girls so bad (there were so many girl-sandwiches and kisses… sigh). I had an amazing time, shared with three incredible women I am so proud to call my friends. I’m in love with them all; I’m in love with California (fires and all!); I’m in love with the promise of my future… more soon.
{beach bunnies captured by the very sexy Mr Boho}
October, 2007
Out of the office
It’s long past midnight and I should be in bed. I’ve packed my suitcase, finished off any work I had to do, emptied the fridge and watered the plants. Now I’m doing the most important task of all: I’m burning music playlists onto CDs in preparation for the drive tomorrow…
..the drive from Los Angeles to San Diego…
I’m off to California for ten days of monkey business, inspiration and love. I have a fully-loaded camera (well, three cameras actually, and lots of film) and arms itching to cuddle my girls. I think we’re going to have a blast – expect a full report when I get back :-)
October, 2007
Asking the right questions
‘Your task is not to seek love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.’ ~ Rumi
I’ve written about my dreams before, how they are so supersized and operatic that I wake exhausted in the morning. I cannot remember a time when this wasn’t the case. Lately I’ve discovered that if I put a question forward before I go to sleep my subconscious will start working on the answers – it’s been quite shocking really. It turns out you don’t lie in your dreams – if you have something to say, or a regret to deal with, it happens dream-side. We really do hold all the answers inside us – we simply need to practice listening out for them.
To aid this I’ve been rereading Dawna Markova’s book, I Will Not Die an Unlived Life, and finding gems that speak to me. In one chapter she describes how one day, overwhelmed with the questions in her life, she took a piece of paper and a pen and wrote them all down, one to one hundred. She didn’t think too hard about them, she simply wrote from her heart:
“What was important was that they were questions that were true for me… I kept going, deeper and darker, until it felt as if the questions were right at the axis of my existence and exploring them could shift my entire gravitational field.”
Inspired, I picked up my pen and gave a voice to all the questions that have been whirling around me, the hows, the whys, the whats and the whens. The ‘can I?’s and ‘will I?s and all the dusty worries that have been hiding for so long. Starting at number one with the obvious – What are my questions? – the questions came fast and easily, as one sparked another, and another, and before I knew it I was at one hundred.
The next morning, as suggested by Markova, I read back through the list and highlighted the ones that particularly jumped out at me, the questions that seemed to sum up what it is I’m dealing with right now, and what it is I need to heal the most. By sitting with the right questions i can begin to look for the answers, dredging up the wisdom i carry in the worldy corners of my self. It was incredibly illuminating, and I think i’ll be using the 100-question exercise often as a tool to bring more clarity into my world. It all helps…
