Dear younger me

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Dear 6-year-old me

I wish I could remember being you. I watch my nephew and I see his bravery and exuberance and I wonder: was I like that? I’m not sure if I was.

 

Dear 11-year-old me

For a long time I was ashamed of you, which is ridiculous — you were so vulnerable and scared. But I see that your vulnerability lives on in me, and it took a long time to realise that when I shunned you, I shunned the tenderest parts of myself. You had to grow up so fast and didn’t have the skills that that required. I truly wish I could go back in time and wrap you up in my arms and kiss your forehead. I try to do this for myself now. I try very hard, and I do it for you.

 

Dear 20-year-old me

Oh my love, what a screwed up hot mess you were, and I love how, despite that, you forged ahead with what you wanted. You knew, even back then, where you were supposed to be heading. We couldn’t have predicted what actually went down, which is probably just as well as you were in no way ready to be that person, but thanks for following the urge to go to art college. Thanks for being your tie-dyed, whisky-drinking, tarot-card-toting self. There was so much to be healed, but there would be time for that later. I’m glad we had all those years in the darkroom. I’m glad we found our creative calling, even if it did have a few twists and turns before we found our place.

 

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Dear 30-year-old me

Susannah, Susannah, Susannah. Thank you for being brave enough to leave him, even if it did take six months of red wine and endless talks. That year was brutal, and the years that followed didn’t get any better did they. It wasn’t the start to our 30s I would have chosen, but now I look back I recognise the threads that wove the path we stepped on the day we sent that email. And then a fire burnt down our life at 32 — we had no control over that. Somehow — I’m still not sure how — we survived, and more than that, we thrived. I’m so proud of you for healing all that you did. It was a cellular regeneration, my love, and I feel it to this very day. We regrew our skin. We were born again, stronger, braver, and so incredibly tender I now cry at the smallest thing. There is no barrier between my emotions and the world, and it is my superpower. Thank you for birthing it for me.

 

Dear 40-year-old me

You were right. I’m three years in and I can authoritatively report that our 40s are just as empowering as you felt they were the day we turned 40. There are a few things we’re probably not going to experience in this lifetime, and I know you were still hoping they would happen, but I don’t think they will. The more steps I take through this decade of our life, the clearer the path becomes. I’m processing some sadness about this, I won’t lie — but I also have this new clarity that’s propelling me forward towards other possibilities, pieces of the puzzle I hadn’t seen when I was you. I hear my future self calling me, and she is smiling. She is happy. I’m on my way to meet her right now.

 

To all my younger selves: thank you. I love you bigger than the moon and the stars.

Me xo

 

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Something for the weekend

Susannah Conway in the May 2016 issue of Psychologies magazine | SusannahConway.com

 

Fun seeing my mug in a mag this month! (Psychologies May 2016 issue)

[podcast] Ellen Burstyn’s lessons on survival

How solitude can change your brain in profound ways

Marrakech’s real mint tea

[video] This brings back sweet sweet memories

Spring celebration salad | crispy curried salmon + basil coconut rice | gluten-free banana bread with salted caramel

Why is tarot crazy popular all of a sudden?

[podcast] Emily Greener — Becoming a leader for young girls

10 famous authors on the importance of keeping a journal

The internet is not real life — appreciated this post from Lisa

I love all of these spaces

Finally, you can sign up for the April Love emails any time this month — I’ll be putting together an ebook of everything at the end so you’ll be able to dive into any prompts you missed :-)

Happy weekend, loves! xo

Something for the weekend

Something for the weekend | SusannahConway.com

 

100 famous artists and their studios | this artist’s work

Endowhat — a timely film | interview with the director

10 ways to start an email off on the right foot | The life changing magic of shorter emails

This will be me in 40 years time (still getting inked — got my first one 24 years ago ;-)

[video] The uses of envy

12 ways to overcome online jealousy

Blueberry latte | mushroom soup + avocado toast | spring onion fritatta

The patronising questions we ask women who write

Six stretches for people who sit at desks

My dog: the paradox

Happy weekend, loves! xo

April Love is BACK!

Join us in April for a month of self-care and kindness with my (completely free) April Love 2016 challenge | SusannahConway.com

 

While the world and their dog celebrate romantic love in February, April Love is all about extending love and kindness to ourselves. In last year’s inaugural challenge we explored self-love and self-care so this year we’re taking another route.

Welcome to April Love: A Month of Love Letters! 

I am *so* ready for this — you too? For this year’s challenge I’ve put together a list of 30 prompts inviting you to write — or photograph or draw or collage — a love letter every day in April.

Each prompt starts with “Dear…” and all address various parts of our selves and our world. Every day in April has a different prompt and the idea is to write a daily letter in your journal — or craft a poem or take a photograph or paint a picture or make a collage or write a blog post, etc — in response to the prompt. To practice love, kindness, honesty and probably a smidge of vulnerability, too. To find gratitude for what we have, where we’ve been and where we’re going.

Even though you’ll be offered a prompt every day there is no “homework” — meaning, don’t worry about trying to keep up! Do what you can when you feel inspired, cherry-pick the prompts you resonate with, leave the ones you don’t (or save ’em for another time!) and enjoy this month of community.

Here are the prompts!

 

Join us in April for a month of self-care and kindness with my (completely free) April Love 2016 challenge | SusannahConway.com

 

This year’s April Love is definitely more of a personal voyage, one that I believe will weave some real magic when tackled privately in your journal. It’s also a wordy-er challenge than last year’s, though you can still use each prompt as photo inspiration, of course! However you tackle the love letters, it’s always special when we come together as a group, so we’ll have a private Facebook group where we can gather and share, an Instagram hashtag (#AprilLove2016), a blog roll and you can also sign up for inspirational daily emails — more on that below!

 

The daily emails

This year I’ve invited a fabulous group of women to inspire us with their own take on the prompts. Each day in April you’ll be emailed a quick suggestion on how to tackle that day’s letter along with a heart-felt example from one of the souls below. At the end of the challenge I plan to put all the letters together into a (free) ebook which I’ll send to you — it’ll be a lovely companion to last year’s April Love pdf.

Get ready to hear from me and Alisha Somer, Amy Palko, Andrea Schroeder, Bridget Luff, Caroline Donahue, Eli Trier, Elizabeth Duvivier, Jeanette LeBlanc, Jen Lemen, Jenn Lee, Julie Daley, Lianne Raymond, Liv Lane, Meghan Genge, Michelle Marie McGrath, Michelle McCartan, Mindy Tsonas, Rachel Cole, Randi Buckley, Ronna Detrick, Sandi Amorim, Sara Blackthorne, Tammy Strobel, Tanya Geisler and Vivienne McMaster.

It’s another epic line-up, yes? :-)

Read more and sign up over HERE — I can’t wait to get started! xo