On trusting my body

On trusting my body | SusannahConway.com
I’m going into hospital tomorrow to have my fibroids removed. The procedure is called a laproscopic myomectomy and hopefully it won’t be upgraded to anything else half way through — everyone is under strict instructions to LOOK AFTER MY WOMB! at all costs.

While I’ve been under general anaesthetic before (a story for another time, perhaps) I’ve never had an actual cutting-and-stitching internal operation, so I’m feeling pretty nervous, understandably. I’m nervous about the post-operative pain. I’m nervous about staying overnight in hospital. I’m anxious about having no control over events. I’m resistant to surrendering my independence and being looked after for a while.

But even with all that jangling around my head, I completely and utterly trust my body.

I started writing a couple more paragraphs here about what I’m realising and what I’m learning yadda yadda but you know what? For now I’m just going to inhabit my body and be fully present to whatever it needs — whatever I need — and we’ll see how we get on this week. Hopefully I’ll be pain-free going forward as I step into my future, ready to release old pains from the past as my womb heals and my luscious self returns.

See you on the other side x

45 responses
  1. Anne-Marie

    Blessings to you, Susannah. I hope all goes well for you.

    Also, I LOVE your tattoos.

  2. Kaiti

    Good luck! Hope it goes well.

    Ps. Beautiful tattoo.

  3. Dori

    Best wishes to you, Susannah, for a smooth procedure with no hiccups, and a speedy recovery. Take good care!

  4. Carla

    I wish you all the best as you jump full steam over this bump in the road. Luv.

  5. Latifa

    Dear Susannah…You will be in my thoughts and prayers that all goes well and for a quick recovery…I don’t know if you would have time to get this series..but if you do they have helped me thru some surgeries…and clearing the anesthesia after…


  6. Maureen Eby

    Susannah remember pain is your body and mind telling you that you are alive and feeling which can be an exquisite feeling of aliveness – don’t ignore it for it will soon be gone as you heal but learn from what it has to give you. Lots of well wishes and take care – your blogs have helped me immensely so I can only thank you and share my experiences in the hope that they help you too. sincerely, maureen

  7. Alexis

    trust and faith that everything goes well.

  8. Corliss

    You are in my prayers Susannah!

  9. Ellen M. Gregg

    Deepest blessings to you, Susannah. You’ll be held in the light. Peace.

  10. Kathryn S.

    Thinking of you, dear Susannah, and holding you, with gentleness and light, in my thoughts and my heart. I have had similar (though not exactly the same) surgical procedures on my womb and relate deeply to that words you wrote and the feelings you describe. Being in my body, being present to what is happening has been very helpful to me and has helped to carry me through the experience. I hope it does for you as well. The other thing that has been of great comfort for me is the feelings of love and support that I know are with me. And I know you carry with you so much love and support, including mine. xo.

  11. Allison

    Wishing you healing and peace in your head. Keeping those good thoughts. HUGS!

  12. Tara

    Good lucky honey, and I know you are in good hands :)

  13. AMY at love made my home

    Best of wishes to you, I hope that it goes well and that your recovery is fast and good too. xx

  14. Martina

    Thinking of you… Wishing you a quick recovery!

  15. Jen Farrant

    best of luck Susannah, I hope it all goes well and you heal well too. I will hold you in my prayers tonight

  16. sheila

    Holding you in the light today and always.

  17. Yanic

    Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. I’ve had a similar surgery, scary but you will do great!

  18. Kim

    Sending you my prayers and wishes for a peaceful recovery, Susanna. Lots of sleep, some nourishing words and pretty images from your fave books or some new magazines will have you on the mend soon! <3

  19. andrea

    Sending you prayers, love, and light. I hope you have a speedy recovery.

  20. Michele

    Thinking of you and hoping you have a very speedy recovery. Much love xx

  21. Jill Little

    Love and blessings to you Susannah! I hope your healing is fast!

  22. cricket

    Best wishes for a speedy recovery! I’m sending you positive healing vibes.

  23. Raquel T

    My Best Wishes for you! xox

  24. Vickie

    Sending you hugs, smoothies and fairy dust!

  25. Grace

    Susannah, I am keeping you in my thoughts tonight and sending prayers for a speedy recovery. I know that surgery can be scary, but trust in your doctor and trust in your body’s magical ability to mend. xo

  26. Cora

    Thinking of you and hoping that it all went well and according to plan. Asking that Archangel Raphael surround you with his love and healing light. Take care and hugs.

  27. Vickie

    hope everything goes well!

  28. Emma potter

    Hope it went okay love and you are feeling brighter and breezier today…kisses for you and your precious womb xxx

  29. Gemma

    Heres to a speedy recovery, sending you love and hugs :))

  30. gabriela

    My best wishes to you ! Have a calm recovery :)

  31. Rosemary Burton

    Look into Budwig protocol. I used and continue to use this preventativly with miraculous results.

    Back from the brink a 4th time and hopefully my last!



  33. Amelia Critchlow

    Wishing you lots of positivity and strength and of course healing vibes Susannah x

  34. Angela vular

    I will be thinking about you and hoping your recovery is easy. Just get plenty of rest and relaxation.
    Huge hug,

  35. Jayne Cox

    Wishing you well Susannah. I think as women we experience to teach others, it helps us through the difficult times. Healing hugs to you, Jayne x

  36. Kortney

    Sending you light + healing + wishes for a speedy recovery! Peace keep you.

  37. Judy

    Best Wishes for a quick recovery leaving you and your body in the best of shape.

  38. Christy King

    I had this procedure done about this time last year. I tell you, the whole informed consent discussion had me pretty nervous, but everything went well, and recovery was a breeze. Hope it all goes well for you.

  39. Anab

    Sending you love and prayers Sussanah!!! God bless your body ??

  40. Katie

    Sending love and warm wishes to you and your body for a speedy recovery. Katie. X

  41. Barbara

    Blessings and a quick recovery.

  42. Shawn

    Health and blessings to you. Hopefully you are far out of the spooky woods by now. Lovely to see all the love and light sent your way =)

  43. Emma potter

    HAPPY BIRTHDAY SUSANNAH!!! We are the same age for one month and I can tell you from the far end that 42 is bloody brilliant. Sending love xxx

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