[my artsy period circa 2007]
I’ve been blogging for eight years as of yesterday. Eight YEARS! It was a couple of months after my 33rd birthday, one month after the first anniversary of his death. It felt like such a daring thing to do (still does sometimes) but I knew I wanted to join in with the few friends I’d made online. I wanted to write stuff on the internet, too! I didn’t know if I’d have anything to say. I didn’t know if I’d keep at it. I only had a film camera so didn’t know how I’d share photographs. I worried that people would find out who I was so I never revealed my surname. I didn’t tell my mum I had a blog for the first three years. If I’d been able to articulate what I was searching for back then it I probably would have said I wanted to be seen. Not in a showy me-me-me way — rather, I was very carefully shedding the layers of invisibility my grief had wrapped me in. Starting a blog, even if no one read it, was my way of stepping out of my cocoon. It was my first public declaration of healing.
And it completely changed my life.
I don’t know how or why the universe guided me to find that first blog in 2006. Or why I left that first comment. Or how it was I found the courage to write that first post of my own. But it did, and I did, and now I am here. And it hasn’t exactly been a straight line from there to here, but this blog, in all its various incarnations, has been my constant companion. So while it may only be some words and pictures floating around on the internet, this space has come to mean everything to me. A virtual through-line that’s brought community. Friendships. Purpose. Direction. I’ve found all of this and so much more.
Thank you for being here. I’ve no doubt that I’d still be writing even if not a single soul passed by, but I gotta be honest — it’s more fun when we hang out together :)
The space that started it all (though, sadly, not the first post — this is probably the 10th):
Um, wow. What happened to this week?! There are three blog posts I hoped to start and a tonne of stuff I needed to get done and it’s all been shelved in favour of being sick. Again. That’s what happens when you help throw a birthday party for a darling 4-year-old boy and invite 30 of his little friends! While I lie in my bed and gather my strength *ahem* here’s some stuff I’ve enjoyed this week…
[video] A tour of the British Isles in accents | The London bookshop map
These amazing embroidered portraits | these landscapes
Things you don’t want to hear from the other room — I heart Jason
[a podcast] Dani Shapiro on mastering the craft of writing
The best time to write and get ideas according to SCIENCE!
I do love a bit of white noise (via Megg)
SO much goodness over at Andrea’s blog hop (plus a free course!)
Pinterest boards I’m currently obsessed with: Sacred feminine | Yellow is rad | Book friends (a collection of some of my favourite books)
[video] Loving Marianne’s yoga for bloggers taster
Woah. I watched an autopsy and it made me a better human
Happy weekend, loves xo
[video] How To Make a Courtesan au Chocolat
Wes Anderson palettes
An Eat This Poem recipe special: Li-Young Lee | Jake Young | Jane Hirshfield
I want to buy these in bulk!
Have you seen Tammy’s new book? It’s so lovely :)
Utterly charmed by this story about the Dalai Lama’s first ski trip
[video] I just really like Austin Kleon and his work ethic
So ready to pack up and move into this apartment in Berlin
Inspiring morning rituals (thanks for including me, Jen!)
[video] The Weight of Mountains
And finally, Journal Your Life starts on Monday!
Happy weekend, loves! xo